The Return of Superman

Hi, the title has nothing to do with this post..... unless you think I'm Superman, then yes. *fixes cape and stares at the sky*.

I managed to blog quite a lot last year with a total amount of 3 blog posts and I hereby diligently present you the first blog post of the year because I'm in the mood to blog today. I promise I will blog at least twice this year.  *covers mouth* 

So many happened last year and I only remember a few. I met so many new friends, my grandfather passed away, I got into an accident with friends that I never imagined would happen to me, was the Director of Non-Academics for an international event, thankfully moved on to Year 2, had an office job for the first time, went to Japan, Singapore and Thailand, fell in love, went to a cave for the first time, distributed food to the homeless for the first time, lost contact with some friends, cried a little too much, laughed a little too much, joined an internal moot competition (and failed miserably but it was worth the experience), ate a little too much, gained some weight, fell on my butt when ice skating for the first time, went for paintball and got bruises everywhere for the first time, designed a whole booklet from scratch. I literally browsed through every single social network I have and this is all I can recall of. LOL 

Also, I figure that a new month's resolution would be more effective compared to a new year's resolution since I only completed one last year lmao. Here it is:

1. More work, less slacking.
2. Make sure I'm on my way home BY 5PM everyday (unless there are classes). I have a valid reason for this. I literally drove at 10km/hour for an hour today because the traffic jam was horrendous. Here's a picture as proof:

3. Apply aloe vera on my face twice a day .__. HEARD IT HELPS OK
4. Control my spending..

That's all so far. Effectively begins on 1st of February heh. Reb, if you can't do this, don't even bother listing down your New Year's resolution man. 



Til next time. X

And in the face of death, we are all losers.

The first time I encountered death was when I was too naively young to even know what death signifies and death lugged my maternal great grandmother away. I didn't know what my mum, aunts and grandmother were crying about but we kids were sent outside and played hide and seek. We were all kept safely cocooned in a delusional bubble of joy where pain and death don't exist. 

The second time I encountered death was last week. By the age of 20, I've already encountered heartbreaks, pain, disappointments but death was still something I am unfamiliar with. This time, my dearest grandfather was lugged away. 

Here are the stages when facing a close one's death:

1. Skepticism. 

I received a text message from my dad when I was at my 9-5 job informing me that grandpa passed away. I sat there, thinking to myself if I am supposed to reply the text message and if yes, what is it that I have to reply? Was it an "okay", "why" or to not reply the text message at all. 

Everything felt so unaccustomed and suddenly, I start doubting if everything is true. Is this a dream? Did dad sent the wrong text message? Were the doctors mistaken? Maybe he was only sleeping? 

2. Realization.

This is the stage where you realized that everything is real and he is really gone. 

I walked out of my office, trying not to cry to avoid questions. I called my brother and then received a call from the hospital telling me the same. 

I spent the rest of the day either sleeping or crying but told myself that I will be strong after all the cryings tonight. I had to, at least for my mum, aunts and grandma.

3. Acceptance.

At this point, I've accepted that grandpa is gone and there are things that need to be done. I woke up early the next morning, still unaccustomed but I've accepted that there is no way that grandpa will be back. But I've learned that accepting doesn't mean that you've moved on. 

This is the day my grandma looked at me, weeping really hard and told me "Grandpa is gone". 

I see my mum pretends to be strong but cries at night. 

I see my aunt trying not to cry but still cry anyways.

I learnt to fold Chinese Paper Money and visitors started asking me to teach them on how to fold them. At the end of the day, I am already good at folding it. 

For someone who tears up when someone tells me horror stories, I wished to be able to see spirits that night. I wanted to be there for grandpa if he at all is watching us in grief. 

4. The Breakdown.

This is the biggest breakdown of all the breakdowns. This is the stage when you experience something that makes you need your grandpa most. It's needing your grandpa but he can't, wouldn't and isn't here, forever. 

That night, I felt my heart shattering, I felt out of breath and I really missed my grandpa. I felt a true heartbreak. 

I felt agonized. 

5. Recovering. 

This is the stage when you don't cry anymore. Of course it still aches, but we are moving on with life like usual, only without him this time. 

Grandpa stays in our memories. A blog post would not be able to bring him back to life, but I hope this post will help me remember him eternally. Here's another post I wrote when he was still alive. 

Rest In Peace. 

January :D

Here's a really short delayed update on my month! :D

- Ran around Sunway Pyramid and played games with the ALSA family. We had to greet strangers with the criteria needed and take pictures with them as one of the few challenges. And then we had to run around to look for places! Super fun filled day and my team got first place ehehe. 

- Skated for the first time! Thank you kind souls for not leaving me alone because I can't skate. I did fall on my butt though T___T

- Tried a detox program and vomited on the third day. I did however gain back my appetite heh.

- Received my first summon of the year already pffft

- Lots of good food I swear 

- Chinese New Year! :3

- I have no idea what else happened already HAHAHA and I'm too lazy to think ):

It's 2014 today.

Here's my yearly not so impressive update on my new year's resolutions! Since my 2013's resolutions were pretty general and therefore easier to fulfill, I did manage to fulfill most of them HAHAHA not challenging at all pfffft! Should be putting something like "walk on durians, build a greater wall of china, go for a war etc" wth. 

Here, 

1. Be daring to do something even if it might not turn out well! I'm beginning to think that it's better to do something than to do nothing at all. Easier said than done though! 

2. Go for more trips. :D 

3. Try more new things! I did manage to try a handful of new things last year whether they were things I never thought I would do or thing that I've always wanted to do.

4. Okay, I'm really serious about this one. DO NOT GET ANY SUMMON THIS YEAR. 

5. Go for more free live performances! 

6. Get purple (or any other colour besides brown and black) hair! 

7. OMFG EXTRACT MY WISDOM TOOTH PFFFT.

8. Be more willing to open up gosh I sure suck at this

9. Keep trying and do my best in everything! 

10. Seriously though I need to learn how to swim. T_____T

11. Reb, you don't need supper every night! 

12. Learn that it's okay to have flaws. 

13. SLIMMER FACE WTH SLIMMER THIGHS WTH 

14. Be happier! Stop feeling upset over problems that might not even matter in 2 weeks time. 

Kay, 14 resolutions for '14!

Decemberrrrrrrrrr.

Making an early update about how my month had been so far! 

Okay so the first not so interesting event was MOU signing event in which the ALSA members from different ALSA institutions gathered at HELP college. We listened to some talks and then we were divided into several different groups. Each group was assigned with a few young lawyers who shared their experiences and the usual stuffs that every law student would want to know about. 

Then, there was mock exam! I also faced quite some challenges at the beginning of December and it became very disheartening. Told myself that all the tough time will be over very soon and I must be stronger! My problems did slowly fade away and my days did indeed got better. So despite how the holidays didn't turn out good at first, it got a lot better after! I got to spend every single day with my relatives and family :D 

At the same time, I managed to spend some quality time with friends. I went for paintball for the first time (although Wen Kang did hurt his foot after and we went to the clinic lol). I also went to cc for the first time and played counter strike with the others. All I did was die anyways so forget it HAHAHA. Nevertheless, my team won both paintball and counter strike! #girlpower #firstiwannathankmyparents #bowsbows #therewasonly3girlslahactuallylmao

I also watched lots of movies and noticed that I've gotten a lot fatter than I was months ago D: Also spent time with the best friends who have gotten prettier and prettier each day and talked a lot about old times :'D Gosh, aren't you girls lucky to have me? Yeah? I think so too HAHAHAHA.

Last but not least, I got a haircut HAHAHAHA. Finally gathered enough courage to do so after so long. Just when I thought I did the bravest thing in the world, my brother dyed his hair blonde for fun pffft. He had such a major change that nobody noticed my minor haircut T.T 

I guess these are some highlights of the month so far!

#NoFilter

Always take pictures of the sky when it's pretty because it probably won't ever look the same again. It was this pretty in the morning but it started raining in the afternoon and the sky turned grey immediately. D:

A bad morning is nothing when the sky is this pretty. :'D 

#TWD

Oh halooo. 
It's been raining since early morning and it's still not stopping. I also finished Walking Dead mid season finale today (which is the main reason why I'm blogging right now sobz). 

Will have to wait for 2 whole months before Walking Dead returns. EMPTINESS HOMG. Not gonna mention who died okay. And no, mentioning that somebody actually died is not a spoiler okay. It's merely pointing out the obvious. #RIPFICTIONALCHARACTER

[CONTAINS SPOILERS BUT YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO READ THEM]

I'm predicting that somebody saved Judith and she's not dead. Carol's probably not dead either. She might have found a new group and she's the leader there. All of them are presumably separated. At least I think Glenn and Maggie are separated for now. On the other hand, the sisters might join Rick's group. I also have a strong feeling that Carol did not kill Karen and the other guy, she was merely trying to cover up for someone. Who then is 'someone'? :O And something is definitely wrong with the black guy who drinks and the little girl who used to give names to the walkers! 

Sorry lah I sometimes take my tv shows/dramas/movies too seriously. Nevertheless, come discuss with me if you want to kay (only if you want to :( DO YOU? )! HAHAHAHA

Kbye.